Conviction and Action

I have been bouncing all over the place. I feel like my weight should be reflecting my lack of discipline but I am thankful it hasn't..yet. Perhaps I am not doing as poorly as I think, but I know I am defiantly not where I need to be.

This blog was started to show the growth in myself. The growth of a women who desires an Ardent Heart. The thing I lack is consistency. Clearly- by the date shown on my last blog. Thankfully I have been pretty consistent in some other areas of my life this year. I have managed to loose 36lbs so far... I have been just as consistent with my daily devos. 

So I am not where I should be by this point, or where I thought I would be but I am on the right track so I can't complain about that. 

If you have read my Spark People blog you know that I struggle with my weight. Heck if you just look at me you know it! LOL! But a step further, you know that my outward appearance is a reflection of how I'm doing inwardly. Chances are if I'm loosing weight I'm doing great... If I'm gaining- my relationship with Jesus, is suffering.

So this is what I read this morning...

Phl 3:18 For many walk, of whom I have told you often, and now tell you even weeping, [that they are] the enemies of the cross of Christ: Phl 3:19 whose end [is] destruction, whose god [is their] belly, and [whose] glory [is] in their shame--who set their mind on earthly things. Wait... What?! Did I just read this right? Who's GOD is their BELLY?! This isn't talking about me... is it? Yep- God you're right... Thats me... My idol is my belly. My food. I have a craving, a fleshly desire, and I MUST fill it. So what I am finding is that the bible talks a lot about gluttony- yet in our Christian community it's really not addressed. It's offensive. People don't want to be told they are fat and need to eat right and exercise some discipline. We talk about sex, drugs and alcohol being such horrible sins and a lifestyle that needs to be changed, but isn't the heart the same? For me it is. I am like any other addict. I justify it, I defend it, I fantasize about it, I'm depressed without it and the moment I get my fix- I'm happy. Just to start the cycle all over again. Did you know that 80% of American's that are obese are religious? And lets just be honest- If you look around.. it is rare to find a perfectly fit member. Is this something we all struggle with? No one talks about it... but from my fat tinted lenses- it is a struggle that is not being frowned on. It is an acceptable sin. Let's be disciplined! Let's be consistent! Let's take care of the things God has given us stewardship over! Let's take care of our bodies and not be the people Paul talks about in Philipians 3:18 This is my goal