My eyes!

Dear hazel greens,

You have been a good set for the last 20 or so and I thank you for that. But I ask why now? Why have you failed me so? Are you lonely wanting frame companionship? Or maybe your just giving up on life and can't take the ugliness the world has shown you?

I have done right by you. I have given you tears when you were dry. I have given you glasses when you became weak. I have given you contacts to keep you cuddly. I have worn makeup to enhance your beauty.

And yet... you can not give back to me clear vision of more then 2 feet?

Now fate has let us here. Our dear frames were lost and we have no new contacts for cuddling. Now is your time to shine! Open up and see clearly now the rain has gone!

Work, Work, Work, Kid

I have come to the conclusion that I am probably the worst blogger ever. I write few and far between. But for those still paying attention... I want to be a Stay-At-Home Mommer!

OK SO, I went back to work. It's been, work. I have been doing my job but my heart is definitely else where. I am surprised to hear that I am doing a good job but I feel like I have no drive or focus. It has been distracting. I am very unbalanced. Needless to say we are praying about me going back to being at home.

The good news, we have paid off some major debts we owed. We still have debt, it's just not as bad. We were able to have a 1st Birthday Party for Adia and Corey's front tooth came out and we were able to pay to get that taken care of. But now, I am missing out on raising Adia. She is already a year old! if I count December, I have missed out on almost 4 months!

My goal is to be on fire for Jesus and if I am always distracted and stretched thin I don't commit to Him first. Lord help us to be diligent and obedient seeking you and your will daily!

Over and out,

Amanda

To work or not to work....

That is the question... Last month I took a temp job to help us out with our debt. Now they want to hire me. Anyone else would think this is a no-brainer. But for me, it's not.

I would be basically be having grandma raise grand-baby if I take this. Corey is graduating soon and his schedule will be crazy. Odds are, we wont see each other too often.

But if I take this I could pay off our debt and possibly save enough money for a down payment on a house. Who doesn't want a house? More importantly- who wants debt?

But the real question is... is this God's will for us?

My heart wants to stay at home with my daughter- but the sensible survey says, "Go to work, pay off debt, even buy a house!" I can commit to a few months to pay off debt- but then what? I know I will probably want more. (More $crilla that is).

I have workaholic tendencies. I can't do a good job unless I care about what I'm doing and if I care about what I'm doing, I can become obsessed. Do I really want to become obsessed about work at this point in my life? And if I'm obsessed with work guess what I'm not obsessed with- God.

It's a potentially harmless path- but there could be danger laying ahead.

Praying for an answer,
Amanda